How do i attract the guys who like to fuck me over. he seriously tried to kiss me. After he pulled down his pants to prove some point that I didnt get. I think its because he knows I still like him and its amusing to him to tease me. Fuck you Cody. I still dont know why you want to be my friend. Just end it...dont linger in this friendship because you think its what I want.
Oh yeah, and he kissed me. On the lips. Thank God I was sober enough to give him nothing back. Nothing. I dont want some stupid guy who isnt mature enough to know what he wants. I want, no, i deserve to be completely wanted and swept off my feet. After being with an abusive and philandering and criminal husband, i deserve the best. You dont want to give that to me, fine.
I told him my rule about guys from my past. As in, he's done. he doesnt want me know, he cant have me back. You either know you want me or you dont. I am a complicated person...i may not know everything in my future but I know that he's cause me this much pain and hurt after just 1 week of dating, what is we date for 2 months and then we break up? How hurt will I be then?
Lets face it...he's waaaay too immature for me. This is all waaay too high school for me. Way too much. I need a man. A real man. Not some 23 yr old guy who treats me like a toy. No thanks.
Seriously...is my life gonna be one after another guy who is shit? Where are the real nice normal guys?
Arghhh. Thank you Jesus for this trip. Thank you for a wonderful house I get to retreat to...and not have to talk to asshattty men if I dont want to. GRRRRR
oh honey, i am sorry. have a nice trip and relax. when it is right for you, it will come to you. Deep breaths.
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